Ok all, now that my energy level is returning to its normal energizer bunny glory, ennui has set back in again. I have spent my afternoon wasting my time in the virtual world as to not overdue it on my first day back in the land of the living. As I peruse all the fabulous people I know, I start to wonder, "Why oh WHY am I not doing something WONDERFULLY GLAMOROUS and INTELLIGENT with my life?" I am surrounded by party planners, photographers, designers, writers, architects, doctors, musicians, yoga gurus, teachers, nurses, and Joe...who's job I do not covet but who does indeed succeed amazingly at paying the bills around here with minimum stress, no commute, and maximum free time. I would like to mention that these people are also wonderful parents to multiple children.
Now as I'm sure you can all attest to, regardless of how I usually appear, I am actually an intelligent, creative, and talented individual. I was an actress/singer/dancer once upon a time, I've walked a few catwalks back in the day, traveled all over the world, sailed offshore through a gale strength squall, surfed in hurricanes, handled all the marketing for a lovely resort in the hills of California overlooking the ocean, successfully renovated, staged and sold houses in tough markets, designed my own lovely and very labor intensive wedding invitations that people thought must certainly have been custom and professionally designed, planned said wedding down to every detail, and am generally a very hard worker and type A person with "you be the judge" writing talents and a bit of something called gumption, yet SOMEHOW I am a stay at home mom and that's ALL. My creative brain is ACHING for something to sink its teeth into and I feel as though I am missing out on some sort of secret that everyone else knows as to how to find these wonderful pursuits that add meaning and enrichment to their lives while still enabling them to balance being a great parent. <BIG BREATH after such a long run-on sentence>
What am I missing? What is the secret? Does anyone out there know?
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